Light

I've been silent again. Just know that means I'm not feeling well and we'll leave it at that.

I had my CVS (chorionic villus sampling) yesterday. The point of this test is that you can do it much earlier than amnio and it checks for chromosomal abnormalities like Down syndrome. They go into your placenta for a sample and send for analysis. You can also tell the gender, but I haven't figured if I want to be told this way, or to see it on the ultrasound later. Results take about two weeks. Not going to lie I was pretty nervous about the test because there is 1/300 chance it could cause miscarriage.

I went in in the morning, waited awhile, then was called back to the Dr.'s room. There are several Dr.'s in one clinic so they have a big waiting room, then each Dr. has their own waiting room.
Anyway, finally was on the table and the Dr. came in. They first have to check and see where your placenta is, upper or lower. Mine was upper--which means they put the needle through your abdomen. Ouch is right.

He numbed up a little area w/ injection, then there is this big long needle he pushed through several layers of my abdomen. Your skin layer, muscle, into uterus, then placenta. He pushed it in very quick, but there was a lot of pressure/pain where it went in. Once in right spot, then they get the sample, make sure it is enough.....then withdraw the needle...done.  All in all, it took only a few minutes. Then they check the baby w/ ultrasound afterwards. Then bed rest for the rest of the day.

So far, the baby tolerated it.

However, they say if you have severe cramping, fluid leaking, etc.. to call them asap. Wouldn't you know I had a bit of both starting this morning into this afternoon.  I thought I should maybe see if it got better, but by 3 o'clock I was really miserable.  I called them and they basically said come right away.

I drove over there straight from work and they got me right in back on the same table.  HUGE SIGH OF RELIEF that the fluid looked good around the baby. That's the big sign things aren't going well--if fluid around the baby is low. He said we should just keep watching and if my symptoms persist or get worse, I need to go back in.

I am now laying on the sofa again. My stomach very bloated/puffy and still crampy.

It was pretty scary driving over to the Dr.'s office wondering if my baby was not okay. I felt quite panicked and anxious to say the least.

I also am at the end of my rope for the sickness. So, I asked the Dr. if they prescribe zofran. She said she would ask my main ob and if so, they will call it in. Simple as that. I know some women it works, some not. But I'm ready for some help, if possible.

I also told my boss about baby today. He was very very supportive and excited (genuinely I think). What I explained was that I chose to do this on my own, I am what's called SMC--single mother by choice, and it took a few tries w/ the Dr., but it finally worked. I told him that I am a bit emotional about it because it has been very complicated so far w/ the blood clot, etc..  I also said I had been planning this for a few years...and my choice to do this came after losing my mom and realizing what I wanted out of this life.
I was still worried about all of the days I've missed (13 so far this year) due to sickness and he just kept brushing it off and saying that this is an exciting thing.
Interestingly enough, he shared w/ me that he and his wife tried several IVF's but were unsuccessful.  They decided to adopt a few years ago. He said he understood how raw, emotional it can be....but he said he probably felt only 10% of what his wife went through. We commiserated about all the shots--he helped his wife w/ them and learned quick you can't do them slow or they hurt.

I wasn't nervous about telling him, and I'm thankful I was talking to someone who could actually empathize.

Oh, this post is called Light because I just am putting out in the universe I'd like to see my light at end of sickness tunnel. That's all.