Sometimes I have to remind myself my girl is only 4. Well, she'll tell you she's 4 and a half!
I continue to be amazed at how she picks up concepts, verbalized things, and is just plain hilarious sometimes.
Here's an example of her way beyond her years.....this past weekend my son was pretty cranky. He was fussy, didn't know what he wanted, wanted what he didn't have. He is two!! Well, I had the two of them sit in their chairs at the kitchen table for snack and you would have thought I said he couldn't eat. He wailed and wailed pointing to the other chair. Clearly the one I put him in wasn't right. By that time I was tired of the cranky and needed to just calm down so I took a deep breath and walked towards my room.
My girl hopped out of her chair, came over to me and said "mama I know you are mad. But....all he wants is to sit in the other chair. If he sits there I'm sure he'll be fine".
I paused and quickly realized my 4 year old was handling a situation better than I was. But then I was just amazed because clearly she recognized my emotion, tried to come up with a solution and verbalized it. What felt like a big parenting fail turned into me just being proud my girl.
Maybe I am doing something right.
She's very big into talking to resolve conflict. Whenever she feels she was wronged or something isn't right she says mama, can we talk? I always say sure because I want her to know that I always listen to her point of view. I may not agree and I explain to her that she might not like what I say but we can always talk about things.
She's has also been saying the most awesome things to hear as a mom--like:
--mom, you are the best mom ever!
--mom you cook the best meals
--I want you to be my mom forever
--I'm riding with the two in the trailer and we are going up a hard hill. I say let's cheer mom on and she yells out 'mom I know I can count on you"!
--I just love you SO much
I do not know what's turned this on, but it warms my heart so much. I kinda want to get a video of her saying all these wonderful things for playback when she's a teenager and I'm sure she won't think I'm as cool.
I've been getting so many hugs and kisses....it's just been wonderful.
And my son has turned into a kissing monster. He's learned how to kiss where it's not slobbery, it's a real kiss with a peck and kiss sound. He even air kisses. It is just beyond cute he'll catch my eye from across the room and just give me an air kiss. I air kiss back. Just love.....
He will be sitting at the table and I'm at the sink doing something. He'll stop eating, jump out of his chair and come over and kiss my leg, hug me, then run himself back up to his chair.
Unprompted kisses and hugs all day long.
It's just been a love fest at our house and it's been so awesome.
They of course still have their moments but they have been playing more and more together...well, she bosses him around regularly but he doesn't seem to mind and if he does, he just walks away like he can't hear her. Completely ignores. It's kind of funny because she just keeps asking him do something and he just half smiles and keeps it movin. He may just be the smartest one in the room even though he's not using his words yet.
Back to speech therapy next week.
I've also done a ton of thinking about my career. I may have another opportunity to move back to Midwest with my current company but I just still don't think it's right for us.......I think I've come to the realization I just want to stay put right now. I'm tired. Tired of starting over. I went online to look at housing and nannies etc and I just said ugh . I really don't want to do this.
I posted on a job in another part of our organization where I don't have to move and am waiting to hear about that. I really want to stay w current employer until April 2018 so all of my savings plant etc vests.
So, my plan for now is to try and settle. Try to make this home and not just a temporary stop. I am proud because our neighbor asked us if we wanted to stop by yesterday for a small party. This is the couple to the right if us that have 3 grown kids. Anyway I might have said no but then thought, why not? We went and wouldn't you know I met someone who works at my company and knows someone I went to grad school with. She also had her kids go through the school we are about to start kindergarten and they raved about it. The mom and the 15 year old daughter. For some reason that made me feel so much better about starting school here.
And darn it I am going to get some curtains and our family photos put up in the wall!
